Remember the movie Waiting to Exhale from the 90's? I don't remember much about the movie except that I cried (no big surprise!) and that I thought Angela Bassett was absolutely beautiful. Now that I am thinking about it I think I will check on Netflix and see if they have the movie...I would love to see it again. Anyway, I was thinking about the movie, well, thinking about the title mostly, because I have been feeling like I am ready to exhale. Feeling like I haven't 'exhaled' in a long time. This week off work, without any obligations outside of the kids, has been wonderful. I feel caught up somehow and at peace more than usual. I have given myself permission to slow down, not try and control everything, let some things slide and be happy. I actually really feel happy. I'm not telling myself to be happy, I just am. It feels good!
To me the feeling of the 'exhale' is letting go. It is believing that things will be okay whether I stress and worry or not. That sometimes things can wait, that other people are capable too and I am not alone in this journey.
I knew all these things in my head for a long time, but, today I am sure I feel them in my heart and it feels wonderful!
Tyler helped me shovel the driveway, Abby's tablet case came in the mail, Grace was in a great mood this morning, Murray and I have a date planned for tomorrow night and the dough for homemade cinnamon buns is currently rising....cheers to a wonderful day!
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