Finding My Way

Summer is winding down and I am running out of energy.  Sometimes I think I am running out of 'happy' too.  And that worries me until I remember that I am human and full of all different emotions...and that is okay.  I don't have to be happy all the time!  Today I am feeling re-charged and ready to bring the happy back.  We still have more than a week to go until early mornings and making lunches.  Until dance schedules and Cadet uniforms.  Until homework and tears.  Looking at our summer to do list I know we did our best to enjoy the summer.  We relaxed, we swam, we gardened, we rode our bikes, we had new adventures and spent time with wonderful friends.  We laughed and cried together, we shared and fought...but I wouldn't change a moment.
I will remember the summer of 2011 as the year I watched my children grow up...I don't mean just taller,  which they did, but really grow up...becoming confident, mature people who are responsible for themselves and others.  Who can make decisions, spend 2 weeks away from home, wear make-up, drive our truck around the yard, sleep over at friend's without being nervous, drive their bikes across the floodway bridge, make cookies and cook eggs.  It scares me and excites me.  I think I am ready for the next phase, for our changing family.....I hope I can trust myself to guide them.  That Murray and I can work together to support them.   I look forward to the challenges and rewards along the way.
Today we will have a late breakfast and that is all I know for sure!
Cheers to a wonderful day.....